So I've been reading on how to learn math in a faster, more efficient way.

I had been going to the GED Classes, and they give you these little packets where you're doing the same problem for pages and pages. This website is saying don't do that, you're just wasting your time. Which is exactly what it had felt like. A waste of time. So I'm gonna start trying to follow what this site says. Get down the concept of one type of problem, do it a few times. Then move on to another concept.

I'm hoping I can keep the motivation to work on it. I'm giving myself 2 months to get it done! *crosses fingers*

So I've thought a lot about it, and decided to be an herbalist along with being a midwife.
It'll give me many more opportunities to help women have a happy and healthy pregnancy. But of course I can serve more than just pregnant women. It can help infants, children, adult men and women. Anyone! I just need to take some training courses on it, and then maybe some in Business too. Or just read business books and attend some seminars.

Midwife and Herbalist are definitely two careers that will do me good even when the world ends. I'll still be able to help the world!

Well, Chicago is going to be too expensive, so we're gonna drive a few hours to Atlanta, GA and go to six flags instead. Not the same, but at least it's still something. And I found a nice hotel for not 'that' expensive. Only 3 miles from Six Flags. Wewtz!

Chandlin and I are going to Chicago on the 19th! yay! I'm excited! We've never been before, but we decided to give it a good driving to. We're only staying one night, but it'll be the best night ever.

He wants to go to a blues club of some kind, so I found this place that seems to be really popular called Buddy Guy's Legends. It's a blues club/cajun food place. It seems neat-o. Finding a hotel near-ish it is a bitch. The closest one that's sorta cheap is 30 minutes away. And by sorta cheap I mean it's not what I like to consider cheap (like 40 dollars, which is what it would be if it weren't still at the tail end of summer).

And then I found something we can do Saturday before driving back. Museum! yay! I have to talk it over with him first (Patiently waiting for him to wake up.) But I'm hoping we'll go to the one with the T-Rex in it. I wanna poke it and get laser-zapped by ninjas. (American ninjas use lasers. Shut up.) If that one is too expensive (Cause it's $22 a person) then there's another one that looks neat. Some kind of International surgical history museum. It's only $9 a person.

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We went to Alabama again this weekend and I got to bring my baby Meowvin. He got to see his squirrel brothers. Just to find out he is still the outcast. Most likely due to the fact that he's the only colored brother. Poor baby. :P. He got to adventure and see a sister from another litter he never knew he had. She looked just like him, except smaller and more slender. With bright green eyes. And she had her own litter of kittens (Which were friggin adorable. And crusty eyed). So he got to meet his nieces and nephews too. Two were just beautiful. They were barely a few weeks old, and looked exactly like Meowvin when he was a kitten (That same deep lead grey and perfectly round eyes) Only their fur was tinted with a deep red color over the grey. It was crazy. Never seen a cat with fur like that before. I wanted them so bad. Chandlin wouldn't let me have them. ./cry

On the way back to Tennessee we stopped by this little store completely crowded with beads and other things. Just, full of stuff to make necklaces with, the bindings and all that. Then all kinds of stones and beads. Chandlin got me a ring, a necklace and a bracelet. The necklace is sooo gorgeous, the ring I just thought was cute. But that bracelet is just awesome. It's like if you were to take a tightly coiled spring and just untwist it every so often and shove a bead in it. That's what it looks like. It's green beads, they're pretty.

Chandlin's gonna get me a pretty skirt from this store in downtown Murfreesboro, so that I have a new one for some wedding this Saturday. It looks kinda like a gypsy skirt ^_^ so it'll match my new jewelry. Especially the necklace. yay!

If only I were perfect and this cake would be prettier. But that's ok. People are only going to digest it tonight anyway.













It's got a fudge and a caramel filling between the 3 layers. The garland thing was hard to do <.< so it had frayed edges, made meh angry. But for the most part it looks ok. Not perfect. But ok. And I dunno wtf is wrong with me trying to make roses now and when I first started doing it. But it seems harder now. But at least the chocolate covers up their ugliness! yay!

I'm gonna practice making a cake with white cake mix and brownie mix! It's going to be delicious. I'm gonna attempt to bake it in thin layers. Brownie, Cake, Brownie, Cake. Lets hope it bakes ok!

I still can't decide on how to decorate it though.

http://community.livejournal.com/v_o_i_s/profile

This new community is here to let all of us (Men and Women alike, who knew Ian) to get together and discuss our personal stories/histories, share our emotions and give/receive help from others who went through the same/similar.

He wants to try to claim asylum in the UK so the US can't touch him.

Asylum is given under the 1951 United Nations Convention Relating to the Status of Refugees. To be recognised as a refugee, you must have left your country and be unable to go back because you have a well-founded fear of persecution because of your:

* race;
* religion;
* nationality;
* political opinion; or
* membership of a particular social group.

Looks to me like "Sexual Perversion" isn't on that list to be allowed to stick around in their country.

He claims he wanted to send her flowers, but she wanted pictures instead? "So it's not my fault!!!!!" Wrong, sir. You could have done the right thing and said "How about I send pictures of my face instead of my cock?" But you can't do the right thing, can you?

How do you explain away the MSN phone sex conversations while she was 15? The nude webcam "jack off" shows? The sexually explicit e-mails and IM's? But that's all her fault, not yours, right?

All of this you did to me while I was 15-17, can you explain that one away and make it ok as well? How about the others? Can you explain it to them as well?

Ian was found guilty of sending sexually explicit images for gratification to a minor.
He was given a custodial sentence, although he was only given a sentence of 4 weeks.
However the immigration department had informed him that should he be found guilty he would be deported with full disclosure. In other words he is being sent back to the states a convicted paedophile. He also has to spend 7 years on the sex offenders register here.

Basically Ian had sent 12 images of his penis (apparently as a valentines gift!) in various stages of erection and after ejaculation. The one after ejaculation is the one that screwed him. It proved he had gratified himself.

More to come tomorrow.

http://www.thesun.co.uk/sol/homepage/news/article1248013.ece

Position needs to be filled immediately.

Requirements:
NO, Lying, Manipulating, Purposefully Provoking or, Backstabbing.
YES, Life Goals, Supportiveness, Kindness and Easy to talk to.

Looks like life is definitely taking a turn from the better to the even better. An exciting time for us all, I'm sure.

And so the truth comes out against sleezey ex-boyfriends. Honestly though, if he could just learn to be an adult and use a condom, these things wouldn't be happening.

www.zerohouse.net

Mine!

This is the first time I talked to him in a very long time. I decided to post it so people would know the full truth about what has gone on. I refuse to let him keep lying about it all.

Comment to Ian who has decided to keep tabs on this post:
Nothing has been omitted from this post. The only thing cut out was your e-mail address and my forwards to Jenn, and her and I e-mails back and forth. Everything else was a direct copy-paste from my gmail. Do not bother commenting on here again. I do not wish to talk back and forth with you. But instead of you consistently lying about me, I would prefer the truth about what we talked about be on here. Anyone who reads it will know, and you will be unable to lie about it. And if you do lie, and they believe you, then they are pitiful people.

*Edit: Edited out E-mail address of Ian. 5:17p

From: Heather English <kinethra@gmail.com>
Date: Thu, Apr 10, 2008 at 1:15 PM
To: Ian


I got my stuff from Scott and assessed what was missing. I'm gonna
need you to mail out my keyboard, the cords to my monitor, the power
supply for my cordless phone, my webcam, and my Windows XP install
disk. And he mailed me a lot of your clothing that I definitely don't
want. And nobody in this house wanted them either.
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From: Ian
Date: Thu, Apr 10, 2008 at 3:52 PM
To: Heather English <kinethra@gmail.com>


I don't have your keyboard. I have 0 keyboards now.
What cords spefically for your monitor?
What is the brand and voltage/amperage of your phone so I can possibly identify the power supply for the phone?
I may have seen webcam mixed in with my electronics, but I don't know for sure.
I'll look through my disks for XP install disk. What version of XP? (Home, Pro, OEM, etc)

Where's my $305.97? Where is my luggage?
Throw away my clothing, I don't want anything you offered to your roommates.

I have a lot more I want to say which means I probably shouldn't.

Ian
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From: Ian
Date: Thu, Apr 10, 2008 at 3:53 PM
To: Heather English <kinethra@gmail.com>


You also owe me for the rest of the 2 year contract on your cell phone.
--
Ian
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From: Heather English <kinethra@gmail.com>
Date: Thu, Apr 10, 2008 at 4:27 PM
To: Ian


for the monitor it would be the cord that goes from the monitor to the
computer and also the power supply.

the phone power supply would say VTech on it, the phone has no
specifics for what the power supply may be in voltage.

It's XP Home.

I don't owe you money, and you can have your luggage when you send my
mother the money to pay to have it sent out.

The webcam is Logitech and round with no base. Silver and black.

I owe you nothing for the phone, it's not in my name, I mailed it back
to you, and I had told you originally I wanted to get my own seperate
phone with my own contract but you insisted on sharing a contract.
Deal with it.
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From: Ian
Date: Thu, Apr 10, 2008 at 4:32 PM
To: Heather English <kinethra@gmail.com>


Fuck you. Deal with that.
--
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From: Heather English <kinethra@gmail.com>
Date: Thu, Apr 10, 2008 at 4:38 PM
To: Ian


Pretty fancy typing for someone with no keyboard.
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From: Ian
Date: Thu, Apr 10, 2008 at 4:53 PM
To: Heather English <kinethra@gmail.com>


Yes, it is called a laptop. Do you want me to rip it apart for you too? It would match my heart then.
--
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From: Heather English <kinethra@gmail.com>
Date: Thu, Apr 10, 2008 at 5:00 PM
To: Ian


No use trying to play the emotion card. I'm not buying what you're
selling anymore. I'm done with you playing the victim of all this. You
are not a good person. You are not just. You manipulate. You control.
You do what you can to get what you want. Get over yourself already.
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From: Ian
Date: Thu, Apr 10, 2008 at 5:14 PM
To: Heather English <kinethra@gmail.com>


You never admit mistakes, deception, manipulation, lies, broken promises, and a lot more. You do admit your selfishness but you don't acknowledge what you do with your selfishness.

You had demands. I had demands as well. You want everything, but offer nothing, not even for things you agreed to pay for.
This includes the money for the time that you kept the cell phone (3 months) after leaving before shipping it back.
You did things claiming righteousness on taking money out of the account, but you forget that $500 came from my uncle, and $400 came from my work. I supported the household for 3 months and asked nothing. You supported the household for 3 months, and demanded that I worked only on projects you approved of.
You broke the lease for the apartment. I covered for your broken promises because I have integrity.

I still haven't had a relationship. I tried dating a few months ago but I kept crying during and after the date. I haven't tried since.

How am I not a good person?
I don't manipulate, I state what I want clearly and plainly. I don't twist people to give me what I want pretending it is what they want.
I might control by setting boundaries, but my boundaries are pretty wide. Anyone who doesn't have boundaries is suicidal or a complete pushover.
I do what I can to get what I want, but that doesn't involve opposing the will of others. It involves spending a lot of money and working very hard.

Over myself? As in what? Thinking that you leaving me for another guy is righteous? Or that I deserved what you did? Or that I should accept getting kicked in the teeth? Please, be specific. I've been self critical lately and would like to know what someone I was close to thinks.
--
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From: Heather English <kinethra@gmail.com>
Date: Thu, Apr 10, 2008 at 5:29 PM
To: Ian


All bullshit.

As I told Scott, you keep my headphones, That's payment for the phone.
I haven't gotten my headphones, you get nothing for the phone.
You do realize that you lost more than you won right? 'I' put money in
on the trading, I consider the money you lost the money your uncle
gave. Sorry you couldn't do it well enough to win instead of lose. You
had no money to put into it. I paid for everything for months and
month and months. where's my half for all that?
I supported the household longer than 3 months. It also cost a lot
more. I never managed what projects you worked on. I let you do what
you want, while I went out and worked.

Because you lie. I refuse to listen to anything you have to say on the
subject about how you think you are good. I've read all your e-mails.
All the way back to when you were with Diana. I know everything. I
even asked you a question once about something with Rachelle, and you
flat out lied, when I knew the truth because I had read it. You are a
liar.

Is that what you're telling people now? I left you for someone else?
Did you tell them how you couldn't keep your hands to yourself, or you
dick in your pants? How you repeatedly lied to keep getting what you
wanted, and how you broke my trust so much i couldn't even trust you
to be around other girls alone?

You deserved that I broke up with you, and I should have done it much
sooner. But I wanted to make it work. Turns out you'll never again
trust the person who betrays you so deeply.

Don't try to tell me you're a good person. Don't tell me you don't
lie, and don't tell me you don't manipulate. I know everything. I read
it all.
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From: Ian
Date: Thu, Apr 10, 2008 at 6:06 PM
To: Heather English <kinethra@gmail.com>


You *gave* me the headphones because #1 I needed them and #2 you broke 2 pair of my headphones after losing my MP3 player.
Forex: yes that EA lost more than it won. Now I have an EA with 11 wins 2 losses and no money/account to trade it with.
I handed you checks and cash for over $900. You spent some money other places. The account was opened with $900 from your account name because the account names must match *exactly* for anti-money laundering provisions.
How long did you exclusively support the household? Yes, the apartment you chose to be close to your work cost more.
You told me to not work on the Game AI. Not to contribute to forum communities.

I'm glad you admit finally to invading my privacy. Amazing you did it so far back and so long. I still have chat logs on my machines, and I've never read them because I decided to respect you rather than violate your privacy to find out what you lied about. I do want to know how much of our relationship was told to the guys you hung out with, spent time with, tickled privately (breaking the promise you made to me) and then ended up moving in with. I valued my integrity more than knowing how much you betrayed our relationship - it wouldn't get you back anyway.

Rachelle with her MPD admitted to completely fabricating a large number of things. She also admitted that one personality would do something and she'd have no memory of it, then claim she had nothing to do with it. Did you read that too? What did I lie about?

Here's the timeline. You left end of June. Middle of July when I asked to come visit you 3 weeks later, you broke up with me. 2.5 weeks later, Chandlin comes to visit. Then you move in with him. Am I wrong on the timeline? I defended you against the suppositions people make about you planning things far in advance "because that doesn't just happen." I still defend you, but I relate the relevant facts which you like to ignore.

Yes, I had sex with someone we had sex with. Later on you asked to have sex with her again. I hate the way that I made you feel, and the way I felt. I feel upset about a lot of things, and that is one of them. What really bothers me is that you talked to many other people but not me about it. That was something you finally mentioned at the very very end. Your accusations and guilt trips worked. My stomach still turns. I've had sex twice in 10 months. I have emotional hang ups now about sex, abandonment, rejection and my self worth. I hug myself and cry myself to sleep. The end result of my previous dating in January was me being offered sex, turned on, interested, and then I just got a deep depression, went limp and turned away. I can't have sex now. Yes, your guilt trips worked.

You say you couldn't trust me with women, but I made a promise and kept it. We were vague about boundaries, clarity was necessary. With clarity came compliance. Yes I rationalized. Then I felt horrible and cried, confessed, got upset. Sex and experimentation with women was *your* idea. The degree things went wasn't your idea, but me being very frustrated and left out wasn't mine.

I never mentioned the huge lies you told me. So how long until that Chinese dress I sent you fits? You didn't even mention being overweight until I was walking through the airport after my plane landed and I called to figure out where to meet you, and I asked if I was allowed to pick you up and hug you.

Want to rehash everything? Or want to negotiate? I didn't intentionally omit anything of yours, the only thing I held back was the headphones you gave me. Scott was there when you gave them to me, and I asked him as mediator to make sure I was being fair.

I'm of course interested in specific criticisms. I take what you say seriously. I have replies, but I am also listening. I will reread your email and think about things as well.

Ian



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From: Heather English <kinethra@gmail.com>
Date: Thu, Apr 10, 2008 at 6:37 PM
To: Ian


I said I would leave them there for you to use at that time because of
scotts kids being noisy. I did not say they were yours. It's called
Borrowing. I never broke any of your headphones and I don't like you
claiming such things.

Not my problem. I needed money so before you lost the rest of 'my'
money, I took it out of the account when it hit 300. You never gave me
a check of your money. Again, another lie.

We moved in Feb. I paid for everything up to the point of me leaving,
I even paid that months rent the month I left. I made sure it was all
taken care of. And the months you claimed to completely take care of
us. When I made my money doing temp jobs, a few hundred here and
there. I helped pay for stuff during those months before we moved and
I was paying for everything.

You break my trust, I invade your privacy. It's a fair trade to make
sure I can trust you. All it proved is that I couldn't. You lied to me
about Cybering with rachelle before you met her, during the time we
were talking over the internet. But I found a chat log in there where
you had e-mailed it to yourself of you and her. I asked you if you had
while I was giving you accupuncture on your back one night and you
said nothing like that ever happened. But I knew you were lying. So
the trust falls more.

I tried to talk to you about things and everytime all you did was
basically tell me everything I felt didn't matter because of this and
this and this. You always go off subject when I would talk to you. You
couldn't stay on what we were talking about. You would just go off on
whatever the fuck you wanted, trying to boost my ego to forget about
everything.

As I said, I've read everything, I know a lot of what she said was not
true, not because she says so, but because of what she says with
actual facts that disprove it all.
What did you lie about? Everything. You are not a real person with
real emotion. Everything you say is a lie. You put on the facade you
think that person wants to see and that is the manipulation.

I left June 28th. Broke up with you a few weeks later, chandlin came
mid-august. I didn't start talking to him until early august. I don't
care what any of your 'friends' may have to say about me. I know the
truth and so do you. You know why I broke up with you. Quit trying to
change the reason for your own benefit.

I never brought up having sex with girls. Everything we ever EVER
talked about sexually was all you. I hardly responded, and you know
that. You know I was way too nervous to ever say anything like that.
Don't try to pin your fantasies on me. When you know it was all you.
Your problem is that instead of clarifying like a real and honest
person. You do what you want and see what happens. But by then it's
already over and you've already fucked it all up. If we hadn't talked
about you fooling around with other people, then that means you do
nothing until we've discussed otherwise. You are ignorant in that
regard.

Good, you need to feel bad about the person you are. And maybe that
will change you into a better person.

And did I ever ask you to buy me that Chinese Dress? We never
discussed my weight because I never brought it up. You asked for
pictures of me that weren't just my face. I told you the truth. I hate
myself, I hate my body. I used to try starving myself and I lost a
'lot' of weight at one point doing it. I stopped because it's
unhealthy and I felt horrible doing it. And that made me gain weight
worse.

I want you to be honest with me. I want to know you didn't steal my
stuff so I can feel less angry about it.

What i believe is you need to see a psychologist. Because it is the
only way you will change for the better. You have to stop believing
you are so much smarter than everyone else that no one could possibly
help you.
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From: Heather English <kinethra@gmail.com>
Date: Thu, Apr 10, 2008 at 7:06 PM
To: Ian


Also, things I forgot to respond to:
Yes, I tickled Brian, no not after you asked me not to.
Although you were alone with Jenn when I said I didn't want you to be.

I also never once told you what to work on and what not to work on. Do
not lie about such things again. It is ridiculous.
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From: Ian
Date: Thu, Apr 10, 2008 at 7:11 PM
To: Heather English <kinethra@gmail.com>


I did see a psychologist. She told me I had issues getting over things and that I feel too strongly about stuff in the past. She also hinted that there was stuff in my childhood I needed to overcome still, but we were pretty involved in the present. Her availability was limited, and so were my finances.

So you're claiming all $900 deposited into FXDD came from you now? December you made a small contribution, I covered most of the household. You bought a lot of misc stuff.

I asked you for your size, which you didn't give. You told me you weighed about 120, I got your height, did some comparisons and picked out a dress that should have been too large. I didn't expect you to ask specifically for gifts, it was a gift that reflected a lie. You didn't even tell me when I asked twice about tailoring the dress that you were too big for the dress. Your sister told me that you had told me bold faced lies. This is the first time I believe I've mentioned these lies to you.

You pushed me away, I talked to Rachelle. I thought you weren't interested in seeing me at all.

So you're saying you *didn't* spend your birthday with Chandlin?
I asked about your fantasies.
--
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From: Ian
Date: Thu, Apr 10, 2008 at 7:15 PM
To: Heather English <kinethra@gmail.com>


We made a deal before you left about no private tickling. We exchanged parting vows, and that was my request. Your side of that request was no Jenn in my room, which I kept until you broke up with me.

I explained what I was doing on Project Angela, and you claimed it didn't count as work. We had a pact where I would work at least as many hours as you. I remember it *very* clearly because it pissed me off but I swallowed what you requested. I gave in to all of your demands eventually.
--

From: Heather English <kinethra@gmail.com>
Date: Thu, Apr 10, 2008 at 7:49 PM
To: Ian

It doesn't change that you still need one.

I did not say that at all. I know 500 came from your uncle. Do not try
to turn things into what they are not. You did not put in any mon ey.
Your uncle and I did. You had no money as far as I knew.
I paid for everything starting in Jan. when I started getting
paychecks from Stream. You were hardley making anything.

You never asked my size. Although I did talk to Rachelle about it and
yes I lied to her. But you never asked. You also never talked to my
sister, she talked to Rachelle. My sister hated you too much to talk
to you. So there's another lie of yours.

Another lie. I never pushed you away. You use that as an excuse to
justify your actions. But it is yet, another lie.

No, Chandlin got there on the 14th of august.

I never told you my fantasies. You asked if I might be interested in
stuff you would talk about. You would ask specifics, I would say yes
or no depending on if i might be interested.
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From: Heather English <kinethra@gmail.com>
Date: Thu, Apr 10, 2008 at 7:50 PM
To: Ian


None of this ever happened. I'm sorry you get pissed about things you
make up to make yourself feel justified.

Please only respond if you are going to tell the reality of things and
not your fantasies.
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From: Heather English <kinethra@gmail.com>
Date: Thu, Apr 10, 2008 at 7:56 PM
To: Ian


Also, as I already said. There was no tickling whatsoever after you
said you did not want it. I said I didn't want you alone with jenn at
all. and that if you hung out with her only in the living room of the
apartment and cuddling could only happen on the couch. because i could
not trust you. i can't help that you decided me saying at one point in
the list no going in the bedroom meant that i only wanted you to not
go in the bedroom. but you have to remember to pay attention to the
rest of what i say as well. and not just what you want to pay
attention to
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From: Ian
Date: Thu, Apr 10, 2008 at 8:35 PM
To: Heather English <kinethra@gmail.com>


You are so fucking twisted that you need to make me into a liar. Your sister told me that you weren't 'small' since you were about 12 but you gained a lot of weight when your father was mean to you. You just assumed and projected that I was lying based on something else you assumed.

I worked my ass off, but I was rarely paid. Google owed me $4000. Scott (reno) owed me $1700. I was stiffed on another $3500 worth of work by that guy from Australia. I worked my ass off. I put in $400, but 'how you count that' is purely subjective.

I asked about your size and weight so I could buy you a Chinese Dress.

I asked about meeting you, and you going to your Father, and then you just didn't talk to me for a while. It was shortly after my health issues, I thought you might have gotten cold feet over that. It wasn't until much later in Dec that you explained that your father didn't respond.

This isn't productive. I'm coding and trying to make money. :/ Are you going to pay any of the money you owe me? You didn't even offer to pay for the stuff you want shipped.

Ian
--

From: Heather English <kinethra@gmail.com>
Date: Thu, Apr 10, 2008 at 10:24 PM
To: Ian

I'm sorry you feel that way. I know for a fact my sister told you
nothing directly. I know she told that to Rachelle. I read those
e-mails Rachelle sent you as well ;).

I know for a fact it was my $400. I remember the exact circumstances.
I had $500 of my own money that I earned at Stream. I was going to put
that money into FXDD. It ended up being $400 because I bought that
printer you didn't deserve. So no. You personally put no money into
FXDD. Your uncle did and so did I.

You never asked.

I never stopped talking to you for awhile. You are falsifying memories.

I owe you no money. If anything, you owe me. If you have my things in
Reno with you, then you have to pay for the shipping. Because you
stole them and if it wasn't for you it would have been here already.

This will be the last response you receive from me unless it is you
saying you are shipping my stuff and need an address to mail it to.

I started thinking about this conversation I had at work a long time ago. It was about gay marriage and whether or not it's acceptable. I remember her argument was fairly ignorant. "If gays can get married then what's to stop people from marrying their dog!?!?!!?!"

*Sigh* What has this world come to? They are just people. Not dogs. Not cats. Two consenting adults who want to be joined in the way everyone else does it. And yet they're denied it cause they 'aren't' like everyone else. In only one way, their sexual preference. Which is none of anyone else's business anyway. Who cares if two guys want to get married? Who are they hurting? Nobody. Nobody is going to lose any sleep over it.

Get over yourselves and pull that 12 inch spiked Cross out of your asses.


I'm pretty sure Jesus doesn't like assholes.

[End]

Training ended today, and I got my schedule. I get to start work tomorrow! I'm somewhat excited. I think it'll be fun. mm, Deli.

I started playing Guitar Hero again last week. And I finally bumped up to Hard. And finished the first two sections. Wewtz!

he-hey chandlin, wha.. whatcha doin'?

Oh... you know. Gettin' crawled up under. ... And itchin' my butt. Whatchu doin'?

Just uh.. crawlin' up under and on and around somebody. Itchin yer butt huh? That's hawt.

... Wait. Who's this "somebody" you all up on? Gimme names! And I'll give you bodies!

It's nobody! Don't kill Larry! I'll never get to see him play the Wii again!

OH! Lol!!!1!1one!11 Just Larry. That's straight up then. You member I tole you to bring another woman home now and again.

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Soooo, Thursday night Tara and I went to see Halloween. It was the second time i'd seen it, first time for her. Still just as amazing as the first time. Rob Zombie is too good of a writer and director. I love how you can see Michael taking a slow fall into that black hole. It's not just a slasher movie. He went in a "behind the scenes", if you will. Showing why he is the way he is. Where he went wrong.

You see him, at one point, eating his halloween candy. Mask off, playing with the candy corn. You know he's thinking deeply about something. Then he gets up, opens the drawer by the kitchen sink. Grabs the duct tape. Right there, essentially he decided where his life was going. If only he could get rid of those causing such misery, life could be so good. Sadly, his life didn't work out that way. So he turned into a cold killer. The movie is extremely brutal. Not just gorey, but brutal. The intent behind every action. Ouch.

My favorite part being when he has his sister kidnapped. She knows nothing about her past. She has no idea she was adopted. He's wearing his mask, and showing her a picture of her as a baby, and him as a boy holding her. Both obviously happy. She has no idea who either is. No idea it's her. And you can see it, as though what he'd imagined those 17 years locked up had been he'd show her the picture, take off the mask and she'd just realize everything. Everything would just fall into place and life could be good. But it didn't work out that way at all. She stabs him in the neck, and he essentially decides "fuck this shit" and goes to kill everything.

And so, Friday morning, Chandlin leaves to go to Georgia for the weekend. Tara and I go to a party that night with her friend Orien (Orion? I dunno how he spells his name). Although nobody really showed up. We had fun none-the-less. Met a few new people, we all hung out and talked and such. Got somewhat drunk. I tried Hookah for the first time. Amazing! To me at least. I was already pretty much drunk. The Hookah just kinda, fucked me up. It was good. Definitely willing to smoke it again. But, before the party we went to the mall and wandered around. It was fun, Victoria's Secret is having a panty sale! Wewtz! Hung out in Spencer's a bit. That store has some stuff that looks kinda fun.

Saturday, cleaned, cleaned, cleaned, played GTA, cleaned. That night I had some crazy nightmare about demons that I can't quite remember all of. It was ridiculous and kinda scary.

Sunday, Chandlin came home in the afternoon. We're gonna go shopping at Victoria's Secret for their on sale panties.

Monday, I have an Interview at Kroger. *crosses fingers*

So, I chopped my hair off, in the same style I had when I was 13. From my ears and back, I chopped it off so that it's about an inch and a half long. I left the front hair longer than I had it the fist time, though. But I had Chandlin shave the underpart of the hair so that it'll lay more flat.

Maybe in a few months I'll shave the back of my head too so that I just have the long hair and everything else gone. Could be fun!

C: "Well I want it. So I'm gonna steal it from you. And you'll never think to look for it in-"

H: "And at that moment he was slain by-"

C: "And there it was. Just as she had always dreamed. Just.. there suddenly, as if always. Her very own-"

H: "And as his voice was ripped away from him, he noticed with horror-"

C: "A sort of calm came over him then. No. He now realized there would be no escaping this one. For before him was-"

H: "And as he lay dying, he remembered tearfully the promise he had made to-"